82 Days to Ultraman Mexico

07/27/25 — 82 Days to Ultraman

Home Again

It feels good to be home again. I guess this place feels like home. It’s strange to call a place other than my house home, but maybe home always changes.

Renee cleaned the apartment, redecorated, and went grocery shopping while I was away. That is a lot of work and decision-making. She never asked me about any of it or made a big deal out of it. She did it because it felt good for her, and in doing so, she improved my environment as well. That is no small thing. Having someone in your life who betters their surroundings through their own desire to better themselves is wonderful. She also ordered two copies of Salem’s Lot for us to read together. They were waiting for me when I got home, and I’ll start reading after finishing this entry.

Something feels different. I feel different. It’s like I’ve finally settled into the apartment where I’ve stayed for almost eight weeks. Perhaps the Krishnamurti dialogues are having an impact. Maybe it just takes this long to truly settle in.

Today, I signed up for the sprint distance race in Milwaukee. Zach and I watched The Taking of Deborah Logan. This weekend, we watched that VHS along with Bring Her Back and The Woman in the Yard. Logan was the only decent film.

I am incredibly tired after this weekend. I drank more than usual, didn’t sleep properly, and spent it away from home. I hope tonight I get the rest I need.

There is a lot I want to do this week:

• Return to full training and focus on swim, bike, and core work alongside running.

• Work for Korbin some days to earn money next week.

• Finish wedding photos.

• Meditate and observe myself more.

• Prepare the website to share and stop putting it off.

• Post more content online and develop another source of income.

• Book the room for Milwaukee.

Zach comes down this Friday for the weekend, which means the next four days are all I have before having a guest over. It also means I won’t have as much time to train this weekend as usual. The good news is I can make my own schedule until Friday night. The challenge is that I feel like I have far too many things I want to do before then.

I can’t worry about doing everything perfectly. I have to prioritize and do my best. Progress is what matters. I have all the time I need. Anything I can’t get done will have to wait. The key is to make the most of the time I do have—and I should always aim for that.